Saturday was simple and fine. Spent a lot of time play with my 2 cousins of ages 3 years and 6 years. I was just making them scream and enjoying the whole scene. Leter in the vening I went with my parents to have ice cream and had my dinner very late.
Today I finially completed the reading to 'Ignited Minds' by APJ Abdul Kalam. I think all this time I had a wrong impression of the personality Abdul Kalam is. He is a wonderful person and a very learned man and when he asks people to dream, he does it with reasoning and also shows us the way to do it. I am really impressed by his book. It was really inspiring.
Then I spent sometime thinking about all the friends I have in my life. I have done this before but this time it was a bit more comprehensive. I realised a few very beautiful facts and I am proud of each and every friend I have. Then later I had a chat with a friend and shared a few thoughts. I thank everybody for everything. I understand that words like 'thank your' and 'sorry' don't find any place in friendship but I can't live without using them ... it's just my way of life ... I mean every single time I use them.
Saturday, May 13, 2006
Friday, May 12, 2006
This is for today ... I mean Friday :D
After updating for yesterday today morning my friend came to my house and we went to our college again. We just roamed around after the Friday prayers.
I felt a different kind of blankness when I was there in my college. It was like something missing. Not missing in the college or within me, but something that I used to have when I was there a month back. It was as if I was looking around without any purpose and I was looked at as a purposeless. I tried to be at every place which had somethning to do with my memories and now that they are gone, it was a feelingless vaccum that was making me feel empty. But ... it was nice .... and I am doing great ... really great.
I slept after I was back home and woke up only in the evening. Then I heard my dad talking on phone to some people about the advertisement of his school which is expected to appear in the urdu newspapers of the city for the next two days. I also came to know about the restrictions and rules the government 'inflicts' on the private schools just to show its presense.
There was somthing about yesterday I forgot to write in the previous update. Yesterday in the evening while I was pouring tea into the cups, the vessel in which I prepared it started slipping from between the cloth I use to hold hot vessels. I repulsively tried to hold it harder and it gave the vessel a jerk that made the hot tea spill in my hand. I just managed to keep the vessel back on the platform, and ran to the sink. When I turned the tap on, there wa warm water coming from it and that made my hand feet the burn even more. I thought I will now see a big rash or a puss filled wound. I poured some cold water on it and later I was happy to see that it had just given me a light red rash.
The burning sensation I felt was really painful and I remember the last time when I got my fingures burnt. Thta was way back in my school days, may be more that 8 years ago.
From this experience I learnt 3 things - always use the tongs to lift hot vessels, never get tensed when anything starts to slip, and remember that when you open the water tap in summer you can only get warm water. I hope I always remember these things.
I felt a different kind of blankness when I was there in my college. It was like something missing. Not missing in the college or within me, but something that I used to have when I was there a month back. It was as if I was looking around without any purpose and I was looked at as a purposeless. I tried to be at every place which had somethning to do with my memories and now that they are gone, it was a feelingless vaccum that was making me feel empty. But ... it was nice .... and I am doing great ... really great.
I slept after I was back home and woke up only in the evening. Then I heard my dad talking on phone to some people about the advertisement of his school which is expected to appear in the urdu newspapers of the city for the next two days. I also came to know about the restrictions and rules the government 'inflicts' on the private schools just to show its presense.
There was somthing about yesterday I forgot to write in the previous update. Yesterday in the evening while I was pouring tea into the cups, the vessel in which I prepared it started slipping from between the cloth I use to hold hot vessels. I repulsively tried to hold it harder and it gave the vessel a jerk that made the hot tea spill in my hand. I just managed to keep the vessel back on the platform, and ran to the sink. When I turned the tap on, there wa warm water coming from it and that made my hand feet the burn even more. I thought I will now see a big rash or a puss filled wound. I poured some cold water on it and later I was happy to see that it had just given me a light red rash.
The burning sensation I felt was really painful and I remember the last time when I got my fingures burnt. Thta was way back in my school days, may be more that 8 years ago.
From this experience I learnt 3 things - always use the tongs to lift hot vessels, never get tensed when anything starts to slip, and remember that when you open the water tap in summer you can only get warm water. I hope I always remember these things.
Huh ... how did this happen?
Yesterday night 2:30 (actual morning) I realised that I hadn't updated The ME Daily. Though I didn't bother to wake up and do it right then, I was waiting for the sun to rise (or for me to wake up after a sleep) to complete it.
The day before yesterday I finally found myself completing the post for Flowing Emotions. My aunt. after reading it, said that there was something missing in it. I am still thinking what it is but I know there is one word which always appears in my blogs but tis time it wasn't there. And I am not sure if she was tlaking about that word.
Yesterday I went to my college with my friend and did nothing there but sat near the library for more than an hour just chatting. It was nice being there after 2 weaks. I plan to repeat these kind of days.
This was just a short update of yesterday and I will pen down the one for today in the night, just before I sleep.
The day before yesterday I finally found myself completing the post for Flowing Emotions. My aunt. after reading it, said that there was something missing in it. I am still thinking what it is but I know there is one word which always appears in my blogs but tis time it wasn't there. And I am not sure if she was tlaking about that word.
Yesterday I went to my college with my friend and did nothing there but sat near the library for more than an hour just chatting. It was nice being there after 2 weaks. I plan to repeat these kind of days.
This was just a short update of yesterday and I will pen down the one for today in the night, just before I sleep.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Lifes keeps on ticking ... into the future
Yestreday I spent much of the time reading a book and though was online for long, I wasn't in front of the system. As usual my day started at 12 and I went to meet my grandparents. I ahd a long talk with my granmother after a long time and it was nice hearing her. She told me about how she is feeling about my aunt leaving for abroad, about a leaking tap in the bathroom and the curtain that came down while cleaning. I fixed the curtain but while doing so, the heavy metal part of the hammer slipped out of the handle and fell on m toes. I just hd a narrow escape from damaging my bone, its a small wound that should heal pretty soon. I got to see my red blood again .. well .. I know it is red for everybody ... but still when I say "my" blood, it makes the talk more interesting for me.
Later in the night yesterday I was quizzed by some people from the mosque nearby. They want me to some with them for a 'jamat' of 40 days. They will meet me again today and I have to give them a good reason for not coming with them. I don't think I would like to share why I don't want to.
Today morning I woke up early out of hunger again, ate a piece of ckae and slept. But my day started a bit early today unlike yesterday. I continued with my book and also had a chat with a friend who is in audi after a long time.
I was then havoing some problem with my PC. 2 of the 3 p2p softwares I have here where starting all by themselves and I just kept on exitting them for sometime and later had to uninstall them. I have the 3rd one left - Ares -And it is working perfectly fine.
Andyes, yesterday I met with an old friend after a gap of 3 years. He was in Saudi for hte last one year and now he will be leaving for US. It was a real surprise for me when he dropped in at my grandparent's place. He has one of the very few people who were close to me when I was in my +2 days. We have decided to meet again and nut out a plan for a movie.
I even updated The Technology Blog yesterday.
Today night I plan to write for Flowing Emotions but I am still not finding right thigs to justify and fight for the topic I want to write on. I hope I get along with it the way I like to. Keep in touch. I am not checking this update for spellings and others errors, so please dont take them seriously :D
Later in the night yesterday I was quizzed by some people from the mosque nearby. They want me to some with them for a 'jamat' of 40 days. They will meet me again today and I have to give them a good reason for not coming with them. I don't think I would like to share why I don't want to.
Today morning I woke up early out of hunger again, ate a piece of ckae and slept. But my day started a bit early today unlike yesterday. I continued with my book and also had a chat with a friend who is in audi after a long time.
I was then havoing some problem with my PC. 2 of the 3 p2p softwares I have here where starting all by themselves and I just kept on exitting them for sometime and later had to uninstall them. I have the 3rd one left - Ares -And it is working perfectly fine.
Andyes, yesterday I met with an old friend after a gap of 3 years. He was in Saudi for hte last one year and now he will be leaving for US. It was a real surprise for me when he dropped in at my grandparent's place. He has one of the very few people who were close to me when I was in my +2 days. We have decided to meet again and nut out a plan for a movie.
I even updated The Technology Blog yesterday.
Today night I plan to write for Flowing Emotions but I am still not finding right thigs to justify and fight for the topic I want to write on. I hope I get along with it the way I like to. Keep in touch. I am not checking this update for spellings and others errors, so please dont take them seriously :D
Monday, May 8, 2006
It happens ... and I still believe that I am doing great
I do not know why Yahoo Messenger has decided to decieve me and hurt me. I was online and visible to everyone on my list for so long today and no one could see me online. Thank God I had my cusin online who helped me know this. I was really irriteted with what all I did to help with this and finally decided to uninstall it and reinstall (this takes 30 mins for online installation along with that crap yahoo toolbar... i prefer using google toolbar). To my horror even this was of zero help. Then I found that its only my regular ID that has a problem. I think yahoo doesnt likes to see me online for so much of time.
yahoo, yahoo, yahoo.
why do you
make me think of you
as a taboo.
I was alone all day,
and you
say u r the best,
wat may.
you irritated me today,
hey,
yahoo, yahoo, yahoo.
:D I am tring to do some time pass.
And because of all this irritation (a pain in my neck), I am not able to update my blogs too. I was planning of an update for flowing emotions and the technology blog but this develish messenger took my time away.
Yesterday night I reorganised all my pics on my pictures blog. I removed a few for the reason that is already stated on the top of that page - "of cource there are many more but they don't wish to be here".
Anyways my day was not as bad as I was exhibiting in my words above. I did have a short chat with a friend and many abstract chats with my cousin.
Actually I think I did get a mood swing today which fought with my commitment to a decision so there was some mental disturbance that created jerky and unruly waves. I am still under it now and the kiddish and cheeky poem I have written some lines up was a fragment of the frustration. I need some space to breath, I cant sit at home for so long and see the same faces all day and night. I am not oombing my hair so seeing myself in a mirror too a threat to my weak mental balance that is resting on strong memories of the past. Once these memories dissolve in the verve with time, I can rest easily on flat base - strong and steadfast. I am waiting for it.
I also found some time pass with yahoo answers. Check out the links on the right side bar of this page.
And yes, I lost one more thing (I am losing something or the other every other day, so nothing new). I used to have my pictures listing in the top 10 searches when searched for "my pictures" in MSN search. I daily used to remove the first pic from my blog and repost it so that it appears that I have updated the blog and it kept its position in the top 10. But now, even after doing the same thing twice a day, I cant see my blog in the top 30. I have lost so many visitors and I got just 9 visitors today and I am myself 2 of those 9. My average was well above 60 untill a couple of days back. This also effects my merits in adsense. I hope I dont see anymore losses and defeats in the dates to come.
One thing I can't hide ... I am frustrated and also angry ... and I know why it is so. I m doing really great :((
yahoo, yahoo, yahoo.
why do you
make me think of you
as a taboo.
I was alone all day,
and you
say u r the best,
wat may.
you irritated me today,
hey,
yahoo, yahoo, yahoo.
:D I am tring to do some time pass.
And because of all this irritation (a pain in my neck), I am not able to update my blogs too. I was planning of an update for flowing emotions and the technology blog but this develish messenger took my time away.
Yesterday night I reorganised all my pics on my pictures blog. I removed a few for the reason that is already stated on the top of that page - "of cource there are many more but they don't wish to be here".
Anyways my day was not as bad as I was exhibiting in my words above. I did have a short chat with a friend and many abstract chats with my cousin.
Actually I think I did get a mood swing today which fought with my commitment to a decision so there was some mental disturbance that created jerky and unruly waves. I am still under it now and the kiddish and cheeky poem I have written some lines up was a fragment of the frustration. I need some space to breath, I cant sit at home for so long and see the same faces all day and night. I am not oombing my hair so seeing myself in a mirror too a threat to my weak mental balance that is resting on strong memories of the past. Once these memories dissolve in the verve with time, I can rest easily on flat base - strong and steadfast. I am waiting for it.
I also found some time pass with yahoo answers. Check out the links on the right side bar of this page.
And yes, I lost one more thing (I am losing something or the other every other day, so nothing new). I used to have my pictures listing in the top 10 searches when searched for "my pictures" in MSN search. I daily used to remove the first pic from my blog and repost it so that it appears that I have updated the blog and it kept its position in the top 10. But now, even after doing the same thing twice a day, I cant see my blog in the top 30. I have lost so many visitors and I got just 9 visitors today and I am myself 2 of those 9. My average was well above 60 untill a couple of days back. This also effects my merits in adsense. I hope I dont see anymore losses and defeats in the dates to come.
One thing I can't hide ... I am frustrated and also angry ... and I know why it is so. I m doing really great :((
Sunday, May 7, 2006
Finally ...
Finally I completed the reading one of the 3 books I was locked with. "You Can Reach the Top" by Zig Ziglar was a fine book full of short inspiratonal essays. The other 2 books I hav to finish are "Ignited Minds" and "The Virtue of Selfishness". Then of course I still have "The Fountainhead" to be done with. But I prefer going very slow with his one enjoying every hidden fragrance in it.
I didn't write anything for this space yesterday so that I can get a line for today's post saying that I didn't do it for the reason of not doing it. Simple justification of ridiculous procrastination!
Yesterday I was at my grandparent's house with my cousins and had a great time. Actually I was busy with my books there too, but found time to socialise :D . And not to mention the heavy dose of sweets I had yesterday.
And yes, there was somethnig very interesting I did. I woke up at 5 in the morning yesterday out of terrible feeling of hunger - I got some food warmed and started eating it. My mother and brother woke up, looked at me in amusement, and asked "you have not slept till now?". What can I say - foolish stomach; it doesn't even know when to ring the bell.
I didn't write anything for this space yesterday so that I can get a line for today's post saying that I didn't do it for the reason of not doing it. Simple justification of ridiculous procrastination!
Yesterday I was at my grandparent's house with my cousins and had a great time. Actually I was busy with my books there too, but found time to socialise :D . And not to mention the heavy dose of sweets I had yesterday.
And yes, there was somethnig very interesting I did. I woke up at 5 in the morning yesterday out of terrible feeling of hunger - I got some food warmed and started eating it. My mother and brother woke up, looked at me in amusement, and asked "you have not slept till now?". What can I say - foolish stomach; it doesn't even know when to ring the bell.
Friday, May 5, 2006
Really really different today
I woke up a bit early today and spent a lot more time on the net doing nothing but downloading. It was really a boring day today so is this update I am sure.
My friend left for Hubli and he has disconnected his cell fone from Yahoo Messenger, and when I saw him not there online on the list it was like a threattening look for me - for the first time I didn't see any yellow color in my messenger.
I was alone online for very long time and that too was something new and different for me. I was feeling forced to think about things I want to run away from. Anyways I don't know how I am going to spend the rest of the time before I sleep.
I am surely going to miss my friend. We used to chat daily and he won't be here for 20 days.
Today was one of my least productive days in the past 2 months. I am very unhappy about this.
My friend left for Hubli and he has disconnected his cell fone from Yahoo Messenger, and when I saw him not there online on the list it was like a threattening look for me - for the first time I didn't see any yellow color in my messenger.
I was alone online for very long time and that too was something new and different for me. I was feeling forced to think about things I want to run away from. Anyways I don't know how I am going to spend the rest of the time before I sleep.
I am surely going to miss my friend. We used to chat daily and he won't be here for 20 days.
Today was one of my least productive days in the past 2 months. I am very unhappy about this.
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