3 o'clock in the morning yesterday, I was on my bed thinking. About many things ... I simply dont know wat made me think all that. I woke up at 7:30 am and was in the college a little before 10 am. I had the program till 1:15pm then a class till around 3 I guess. I left for my grandparents' house at 3:30pm from the college. Reached there at 4:20. Left at 5:40pm, reached CL 20 minutes late - was stuck in the traffic. I was back home at 9:20 pm.
It was a simple day with nothing much done but ---
1) A friend of mine said that he would never talk to me again. This was because I didnt wait for him while I was going to HOD to submit some form for a campus connect program. I dont know how much he meant it. I did feel bad when he said that but I am not sorry and I dont regret anything. Given that he has been irritating me a lot in the last few days, I think I did right by taking him easy. He is just showing some ego and I am sure he would be fine very soon. But till then I will miss him.
2) I was 20 minutes late at CL. Even last Saturday I was late due to rainfall. I felt bad for this. It wasnt any kind of embaracement, but still I felt guilty for going late ... felt disrespect for myself.
3) Many of my friend went for a movie and I didnt go. The first reason was definitely was that if I had been tot he movie, I would have gone to CL late. But anyways I went late ... it was decided by God. But still I felt glad that I didnt go!
4) Today I felt I am very alone. I dont know what made me feel this with so many nice people around me. I hated myself for this. I dont deserve anything good if I think this way. There is some fault with something and I need to identify that. Will take time.
The rest was fine. I was glad that I could meet my grandparents. My aunt prepared fried chicken for me. I told her that there was absolutely no need for her to take the pain to prepare that, but still she made it.
After now, for the last 2 hours, my wisdom teeth has been poking its pointed tip to my cheeck from inside. It giving some irritation. I hope I get used to it soon.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Friday, September 22, 2006
Ya Ali song -Home made video
| Indian teens dancing to the famous ya ali song with the grave of Ali as the centre of attraction.This was shot for fun and would be worth a watch. ... Done by my cousins and brother! Its a work of comedy and fiction and there is no intention of hurting any sentiments. If any person feels offended, we are sorry for it but we don't regret anything! | |
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Say it
I was about to shut down my computer when I realised that I had not updated the blog.
I didnt attend the lab today morning as I was 30 minutes lates. I started late from home. I over slept. I slept late yesterday. I wasted my time. What more can I say?
I had soem nice chats with 2 of my friends today ... it was nice talking to them. Always makes me feel good after talking to sombody who is there to listen and talk back honestly.
I didnt attend the lab today morning as I was 30 minutes lates. I started late from home. I over slept. I slept late yesterday. I wasted my time. What more can I say?
I had soem nice chats with 2 of my friends today ... it was nice talking to them. Always makes me feel good after talking to sombody who is there to listen and talk back honestly.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
I need to take something more cold-specific!
For the last one week i have been suffering from cold. I cant say that I am suffering but still I am not perfectly fine with my throat, nose and voice. Mucous get accumilated in my throat and makes me feel uncomfortable. Sometimes it even makes my voice sould a little different. I am taking some cough syrup daily but I suppoose I need to take something more cold-specific!
In the evening after the college I went along with my friend s to 'Kababish'. We had grilled chcken there. We had a long discussion, in which I didnt participate, before deciding that we would be going to that place ... its a bit far from my house ... on the other side of the Musi River - Chaderghat. There was no grilled chicken available at the outlet on this side.
I attened all classes today and even the one of Data Communications. I tried alot to concentrate and hear everything sir was saying. I understood only one thing - Sir tells the name of the topic and the details of it; he hardly explains what the topic is all about. Forget about explaining the topic! Still I was there in the class and I felt glad that I wasnt bored of the lecture and didnt feel sleepy.
In the evening after the college I went along with my friend s to 'Kababish'. We had grilled chcken there. We had a long discussion, in which I didnt participate, before deciding that we would be going to that place ... its a bit far from my house ... on the other side of the Musi River - Chaderghat. There was no grilled chicken available at the outlet on this side.
I attened all classes today and even the one of Data Communications. I tried alot to concentrate and hear everything sir was saying. I understood only one thing - Sir tells the name of the topic and the details of it; he hardly explains what the topic is all about. Forget about explaining the topic! Still I was there in the class and I felt glad that I wasnt bored of the lecture and didnt feel sleepy.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Eat Street
I am finally done with the article that I would be submitting to compete for the post of editor to the MJ communique. I had to do a lot of thinking this time given that there was a limit of 250 words. Still I went beyond 325! All I hope is that nobody else writes anything better than this, and I am selected. God-willing.
Today I missed my first class - in the morning. It was because of the rain; it was raining too heavily near my house and as it was cold, I was feeling like staying inside the blanket for even longer. I started from home a little before 10 am and my father dropped me almost half way up to the college.
In the afternoon I didnt attend the scheduled lab. To the best of my knowledge nobody did. It would be too disturbing for me if I come to know that somebody has attended and attendance was taken. Already had such experiences before.
I went along with 7 friends of mine to Eat Street. We had quite a many things there - nuggets, burger, ice cream and some 'chaat'. Then we played 'Truth n Dare'. I can't explain how much fun it was. One of my friends went to 3 people individually and told them that he is mad - this was the dare given to him. Another friend went to a couple sitting nearby and asked them boldly "what are you doing here?" Perhaps they understood that we were just playing and they were fine. He even took a pic of their's using their cell phone. Another friend went and asked the name of some girl sitting a little far away. I laughed a lot today.
I reached home at 5:30 pm. I had some of the lunch I had taken to college and then a chicken roll as my dinner. I dont know but I think I will eat something more before getting to sleep.
Just after we returned from Eat Street to the college, one of my friends forcibly took some money from me ('some' would be less actually; it was more than some). He, and another friend, held me tightly, put a hand into my pocket and took out my wallet. It was like being robbed. As far as the money was concerned I didnt mind anything, but I didnt like the way they took it from me. I was made useless by the force they had put on me! It could have been done in much better ways. I will talk to him tomorrow about this and will tell him that I didnt like it. I am sure he didnt mean to hurt me. He is my friend - I dont think I am hurt - just thatI didnt like it.
Today I missed my first class - in the morning. It was because of the rain; it was raining too heavily near my house and as it was cold, I was feeling like staying inside the blanket for even longer. I started from home a little before 10 am and my father dropped me almost half way up to the college.
In the afternoon I didnt attend the scheduled lab. To the best of my knowledge nobody did. It would be too disturbing for me if I come to know that somebody has attended and attendance was taken. Already had such experiences before.
I went along with 7 friends of mine to Eat Street. We had quite a many things there - nuggets, burger, ice cream and some 'chaat'. Then we played 'Truth n Dare'. I can't explain how much fun it was. One of my friends went to 3 people individually and told them that he is mad - this was the dare given to him. Another friend went to a couple sitting nearby and asked them boldly "what are you doing here?" Perhaps they understood that we were just playing and they were fine. He even took a pic of their's using their cell phone. Another friend went and asked the name of some girl sitting a little far away. I laughed a lot today.
I reached home at 5:30 pm. I had some of the lunch I had taken to college and then a chicken roll as my dinner. I dont know but I think I will eat something more before getting to sleep.
Just after we returned from Eat Street to the college, one of my friends forcibly took some money from me ('some' would be less actually; it was more than some). He, and another friend, held me tightly, put a hand into my pocket and took out my wallet. It was like being robbed. As far as the money was concerned I didnt mind anything, but I didnt like the way they took it from me. I was made useless by the force they had put on me! It could have been done in much better ways. I will talk to him tomorrow about this and will tell him that I didnt like it. I am sure he didnt mean to hurt me. He is my friend - I dont think I am hurt - just thatI didnt like it.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Nothing much today
I had a class for English Usage today and it was equally good - like tomorrow. I came back home around 1 pm and after some snacks I jumped into bed to wake up at 3:30 pm I had my first proper meal of the day at 4 pm. After that I have been eating something or the other every now and then. Had lots of biryani too.
I the evening I did a lot of reading. I had to write some article for college and I was saerching for the right mood to happen to me. It did happen but it was too late. I will write something tomorrow. The biggest problem is that the word limit is 250 words!
I also had a chat with a friend where we discussed a lot on body language and facial expressions.
I the evening I did a lot of reading. I had to write some article for college and I was saerching for the right mood to happen to me. It did happen but it was too late. I will write something tomorrow. The biggest problem is that the word limit is 250 words!
I also had a chat with a friend where we discussed a lot on body language and facial expressions.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive.
The title is a quote by Elbert Hubbard. I have subscribed to a newslatter from about.com and they keep sending me something interesting every week. This Saturday it was quotes by Elbert Hubbard.
I arrived home 9:10 pm today after the class at CL. It was about reading comprehension and it was one of the best classes I have attended till date. I have assessed my reading speed as 155 words per minute at that particular moment, with that particular mood, with those five 600 to 900 word essays. By the time I get ready to write CAT, I need to have my speed around 350 i guess. Even if it is not necessary, I know I can make it - I wnat to actually. Its a satisfaction in itself. I need to be more good at comprehension.
Evertime I attend some class at CL I feel as if I have dome something very significant - even when its a very small things. It makes me feel that I have spent some productive time - learnt something that will give me a better shape - even when its just something related to maths!
It was around 12:30 am in the morning (night) that I decided to attend the college to be there at the program being conducted for 29 Saturdays starting form today. We were not informed about this yesterday in the class but somehow I came to know that it was mandatory to attend and I attended. It is regarding campus interviews. We would be taught about how to get through the campus interviews and selection processes. Today we had lectures on GD and PI. We even had a mock GD and a mockPI. It is necessary that we all attend at least 20 of such Saturdays to be eligible for campus interviews.
I am seriously not interested in any campus placements but still I will try to attend as many of them I find possible for me. There is always something to learn even if I dont like what is being said or taught. At least I will learn to endure something I am not interested in. But I dont think I will find myself learning endurance in the lectures ... things like these have always excited me. Just that the purpose or the objective of this complete program is something I am not interested in!
I arrived home 9:10 pm today after the class at CL. It was about reading comprehension and it was one of the best classes I have attended till date. I have assessed my reading speed as 155 words per minute at that particular moment, with that particular mood, with those five 600 to 900 word essays. By the time I get ready to write CAT, I need to have my speed around 350 i guess. Even if it is not necessary, I know I can make it - I wnat to actually. Its a satisfaction in itself. I need to be more good at comprehension.
Evertime I attend some class at CL I feel as if I have dome something very significant - even when its a very small things. It makes me feel that I have spent some productive time - learnt something that will give me a better shape - even when its just something related to maths!
It was around 12:30 am in the morning (night) that I decided to attend the college to be there at the program being conducted for 29 Saturdays starting form today. We were not informed about this yesterday in the class but somehow I came to know that it was mandatory to attend and I attended. It is regarding campus interviews. We would be taught about how to get through the campus interviews and selection processes. Today we had lectures on GD and PI. We even had a mock GD and a mockPI. It is necessary that we all attend at least 20 of such Saturdays to be eligible for campus interviews.
I am seriously not interested in any campus placements but still I will try to attend as many of them I find possible for me. There is always something to learn even if I dont like what is being said or taught. At least I will learn to endure something I am not interested in. But I dont think I will find myself learning endurance in the lectures ... things like these have always excited me. Just that the purpose or the objective of this complete program is something I am not interested in!
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Here I am
I was thinking of some title for today's post and the song 'here I am' by Brian Adams started in the head phones which are in my ears now, so I thought of having this as the title - simply.
I had my dinner late today - actually sitting in front of the television. I watched some video related to network marketing by some very famous person working with Network21. It was real fun to see him speak along with a translator who was translating all his words and sentences in hindi. I havent finished with the full video yet; it is of 2 CDs and I have watched just 34 minutes of the first one. I have lost the patience to sit in front of the television for long even if it a very interesting show I got the CDs from my uncle.
I even completed one of my lab records tday. I was thinking that it would take me a lot of time for finishing but to my surprise i finished it in a little less than an hour. I was glad that it was finally over; if i had known that it was so small, then i would have finished it long back. It was my friend's record that gave me the essential help. I was listenign to music as I was writing.
Today I withdrew what I had sent 2 days back. I simply have no idea if that has made any difference but I am definitely feeling a little relieved that I wont be waiting for anything now. But still, I dont feel right about it. Will take some time for me to forget it. But i will forget it.
Perhaps a rejection would have made things easier for me.
I had my dinner late today - actually sitting in front of the television. I watched some video related to network marketing by some very famous person working with Network21. It was real fun to see him speak along with a translator who was translating all his words and sentences in hindi. I havent finished with the full video yet; it is of 2 CDs and I have watched just 34 minutes of the first one. I have lost the patience to sit in front of the television for long even if it a very interesting show I got the CDs from my uncle.
I even completed one of my lab records tday. I was thinking that it would take me a lot of time for finishing but to my surprise i finished it in a little less than an hour. I was glad that it was finally over; if i had known that it was so small, then i would have finished it long back. It was my friend's record that gave me the essential help. I was listenign to music as I was writing.
Today I withdrew what I had sent 2 days back. I simply have no idea if that has made any difference but I am definitely feeling a little relieved that I wont be waiting for anything now. But still, I dont feel right about it. Will take some time for me to forget it. But i will forget it.
Perhaps a rejection would have made things easier for me.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Ache in my head
I didnt wish to bunck any class today but when I found that my lab record was in no way like I had wanted it to be, I lost that wish. I didnt go to the lab cos I didnt like to submit the record that way. I came home at around 4:30 pm. Wanted to talk to some friends but I guess I will do it tomorrow (today, now).
The time I am spending on orkut is increasing everyday. I found many of my old friends there and I guess it is better to scrap there than chat in yahoo messenger.
The time I am spending on orkut is increasing everyday. I found many of my old friends there and I guess it is better to scrap there than chat in yahoo messenger.
Monday, September 11, 2006
Good and evil
A friend of mine seems to have some problem with me - he wants to define the differences between good and bad even when i told him that it is better off as good and evil http://wahfais.blogspot.com He will take some lessons from me very soon.
I had a better day today. We left the college early without attending the afternoon class and I spent a lot of time on the internet especially with orkut. I had been thinking of adding somebody and even my friends have asked me to go ahead with it but I am still afraid. Seems to be a joke ... I have a keyboard in my hands which is mightier not just than a sword but a tank and I am afraid of making a few clicks with my mouse. Actually, the mouse must be a little weaker. :D
I haven't read my friend's post completely even till now. I had chats with many people on orkut and even on yahoo messenger. I didn't get the time and the right mood. I was preoccupied with some other thoughts!
I had a better day today. We left the college early without attending the afternoon class and I spent a lot of time on the internet especially with orkut. I had been thinking of adding somebody and even my friends have asked me to go ahead with it but I am still afraid. Seems to be a joke ... I have a keyboard in my hands which is mightier not just than a sword but a tank and I am afraid of making a few clicks with my mouse. Actually, the mouse must be a little weaker. :D
I haven't read my friend's post completely even till now. I had chats with many people on orkut and even on yahoo messenger. I didn't get the time and the right mood. I was preoccupied with some other thoughts!
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