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Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction.
-Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Wind, Sand and Stars, 1939, translated from French by Lewis Galantière

I want to be explained that I am not the only one with such kind of things in mind. It always gives more strength and confidence to know that we are not alone with what we think and what we do. I remember whenever I went late to college my biggest worry used to be being the only one to go late. Being scolded or not being let in was completely a different concern which I hardly used to pay attention to. Perhaps these are simple human instincts that demand our desire to have people around us who stay with us even if we don't think alike. And perhaps the word lonely has been designed to describe how it feels not to satisfy that desire. Like love, many human instincts seem irrational. But they exist and they make a difference.

I reached home at 7:30 pm after spending almost 5 hours in the college. I was expecting some company and thankfully I had a friend with me. There was nothing I did about the tests I am supposed to have from tomorrow. Right now I have the same amount of over confidence which I had the last time I had such tests. There are eight answers I must learn to attempt the essays' section and the only thing I know now is that I have more than 10 hours before I have to put a few of them on paper. I have done it before so many times and inshAllah I won't find it difficult to do it again. These words of mine are sure to be misleading for any person who hasn't been through the four years of engineering studies.

Writing two to three paragraphs for a post is easy. But writing sensible things is always a task especially when I feel disappointed with people around with the reason being my own actions which never intended to go wrong. I had no plans to write for today but I have to sit down and study now and this is the only way I can feel better. I am not being criticised, nobody has scolded me, but I can understand what things imply and how they can work blunders. Things will be different when I open the book now - it's going to be a reminder of past. It looks unfair how an hour of test requires so much effort which we never put. I remember studying for hours together in the past. Things have changed and according to many people even I am supposed to have changed. I know my objectives and morals remain the same. 'Objectives' and 'morals' - two of the many heavy words!