Somehow

Marriage is the promise of eternal love. As a man of honor I cannot promise eternally what I've never felt momentarily.
- Leopold, Kate And Leopold

There come some occasions when we see that there is no light at the end of the tunnel we are in and that there is no way we could turn around or even light a matchstick. Then without giving us even a second, the whole world suddenly looks illuminated and beautiful. But the darkness doesn't go away without making any change. It leaves it marks, reasons and lessons. Apart from what all we can personally draw from that darkness, there is something explained to us as a whole: nothing lasts forever.

Yesterday we celebrated birthdays of two friends. We have been postponing the celebration for long now and it was time to have some fun finally. It was a 'three-course' celebration - we first met at a mall, then went to a restaurant and to another place where the gifts where handed over. Then later I went to a friend's house and returned home late. That was just to see that none of my parents had arrived. Around 8 pm I went to bed to take a nap. I was bugged by some terrible dream like things! I don't know exactly how I was feeling but it wasn't good. I got out at 9 pm, had my dinner at 10, and slept after 3 am - the routine.

I wanted to finish watching 'Godfather' at the earliest and see 'Just My Luck'. I have already cleared a lot of space after deleting those I have watched last week and I am hoping to get a new 'lot'. I have developed new tastes and likes. In fact I have even found a name which I can say when asked about my favourite actress! I had never imagined myself coming to this kind of liking - I had always felt proud for not having such kind of likes. But I am fine with it now.