I have some choice and I like it

Advice is seldom welcome; and those who want it the most always like it the least.

— Lord Chesterfield

A few days back I registered myself at facebook.com. I found it nice. I suppose the word 'sophisticated' would explain it better. It has more privacy than orkut. The most important thing for me is that I have my cousins here and its helping me contact them regularly. I have also found my friend friend from US who left India last year. The other nice thing I found is that gmail allows 20 MB of attachments in a single mail now.

One of my friends woke me up early today. I know it was after 10 am but it was early for me. But I slept again. I reached my uncle's place a little before 3 pm. I read a book there and some part of the newspaper. I will finish the book tomorrow. I can't name it here right now.

For the last, at least, 30 minutes I have been watching at this 'compose' page thinking what I can write for today. I hardly found anything interesting. Just that my mother told that she has thought a name for my daughter already. There were some people around when she said that and I behaved as though I heard nothing. I found no other reaction good. I really don't know whats going on.

I am taking my mother in a negative sense maybe. Perhaps I am liking what she is saying but I am preferring presenting a different reaction. In fact I know guys enjoy such things but mothers talking all that is usually for girls given that I am not even 21 now. I want to break the ice on this topic and speak to her more openly. I just hope I don't end up laughing or blushing in front of her someday.

I feel lost sometimes. Lost not just in thoughts but also in reality. When I wrote a post here with the title 'It Starts From Here', I thought something would change from then. Even I didn't know what exactly. I don't have explanations of what I think and feel sometimes. Many things come and appear in front of me like adaptive unconsciousness. This phrase is alien I know. It was alien to me too until a few days back. The book I am reading explains it. I am trying to take that book at entertainment.