Snubbed!

3 o'clock in the morning yesterday, I was on my bed thinking. About many things ... I simply dont know wat made me think all that. I woke up at 7:30 am and was in the college a little before 10 am. I had the program till 1:15pm then a class till around 3 I guess. I left for my grandparents' house at 3:30pm from the college. Reached there at 4:20. Left at 5:40pm, reached CL 20 minutes late - was stuck in the traffic. I was back home at 9:20 pm.

It was a simple day with nothing much done but ---

1) A friend of mine said that he would never talk to me again. This was because I didnt wait for him while I was going to HOD to submit some form for a campus connect program. I dont know how much he meant it. I did feel bad when he said that but I am not sorry and I dont regret anything. Given that he has been irritating me a lot in the last few days, I think I did right by taking him easy. He is just showing some ego and I am sure he would be fine very soon. But till then I will miss him.

2) I was 20 minutes late at CL. Even last Saturday I was late due to rainfall. I felt bad for this. It wasnt any kind of embaracement, but still I felt guilty for going late ... felt disrespect for myself.


3) Many of my friend went for a movie and I didnt go. The first reason was definitely was that if I had been tot he movie, I would have gone to CL late. But anyways I went late ... it was decided by God. But still I felt glad that I didnt go!

4) Today I felt I am very alone. I dont know what made me feel this with so many nice people around me. I hated myself for this. I dont deserve anything good if I think this way. There is some fault with something and I need to identify that. Will take time.

The rest was fine. I was glad that I could meet my grandparents. My aunt prepared fried chicken for me. I told her that there was absolutely no need for her to take the pain to prepare that, but still she made it.

After now, for the last 2 hours, my wisdom teeth has been poking its pointed tip to my cheeck from inside. It giving some irritation. I hope I get used to it soon.