Isolation is not good

When I couldn't sleep yesterday night I didn't know I was going to sleep for 5 continous hours during the day time. The day today went past my eyes in a whicker and I am stillwondering if everything in my life will move away even without me having a notice on it. I had a heavy dinner today and I suppose I need to do this everytime I have a meal. My weight is on the fall and I must take of it before it takes me out.

I met my aunt, uncle and cousines today after a year. Later we dropped them totheir appartment for them to have some rest. They had not slept for more than 24 hours. We shall meet again once they have their house right and up.

As I have once mentioned, I had a detailed talk with my uncle, my father's elder brother, on Saturday. He narrated me an experience of his own which I would like to put here. I am giving it as the words spoken by him, though not exactly. I won't further explain what this teaches to me considering the incidence itself to be self-explanatory -

"When I was in my 10th standard I had dreamt of having a car for myself in the future. I wanted a red car with white interiors and a kind that makes people turn and have a look at."

"I used to narrate my dream with my friends. A few of them were from villages and they were her for their studies. They would praise my dream and even ridicule it. May they made more fun of it behind my back. But there was one guy who got serious and told me that he would be the one who would design my dream car. This way our dreams were shared and joined. But hte future had soemthing else for us in store."

"After completing my education I went to France. I was ther for a few months and started working in a company in Riyadh, Saudi Arabia. I had a friend to whom I asked to have a look out on American cars available in Riyadh that are being sold second-hand. He yeled at me stating that American cars in Saudi Arabia are a rarity and their cost of maintenance would be a good slice of my monthly salary. These were the days when there were only Japaneese cars in Saudi. I still insisted him for an American model."

"One day he called me once. He said his company has an American model which will has t be sold. I was being used only once in a year when a few American dignitaries come to Riyadh and it was useless during the other time of the year. So, the company has decided to sell it away."

"That day I took a friend with me to have a look at the car. This particular has a fair good knowledge about cars. When we saw the car in its garage, it was covered in a thick sheet of dust. My friend checked the car thoroughly and declared that it can me a good buy. He said the broad radial wheels were very old and we can replacethem after a run of a few kilometers. The engine was perfect. I immidiately paid the cash and brought the car home in the condition."

"I still had to get it cleaned but before that I took a few drives in it with my brother living in Riyadh. Then I gave it for wash. I waited as the car went inside the automated washing system. I waited there for long watch for several other cars coming out from its exit. I even saw a beautiful red car coming out of it. I was still waiting for mine to come."

"After a good amount of time a worker handled me the keys showing me a beautiful car standing in front of me. I thought it was someone else's. But as I realised after a few seconds, I was overwhelmed tofind that it was the same car I had purchased a few hours back."

"It was red in color and has wonderful white interiors. I had forgotten my decade old dream but this marvel standing in front of me reminded me of that dream. All of my friends were scattered with their small visions of making a decent living, but here, I was standing in amazement as I looked at the mchine of my dreams."

"I could drive the car and the speedometer showed 210 kmph. It was a lovely piece of engineering and always caught all eyes on the road as I passed by. All this in a rich country like Saudi Arabia."

I am glad to have an uncle like this. I need not look outside to find inspiration, it is right in my family - a person with whom I share a similar blood.

For several days I have been thinking of an article on dreams. I think I now have the right motivation to get ahead with it.

Today in the evening I was feeling a bit sleepy again. lay on the divan in the living room and was trying for a short nap. The experience was incredible: I would begin to fall asleep - a fraction of a second would seem as something from a different world, something very different, filled with nothing, blankness, and I was awaken by some sound around me. It was like I was floating on something very light for those fractions of time - the time between really getting into sleep and being awake. This usually happens when ther is a ot of disturbance around us or if we are filled with some sort of tension. The reason today for me I suppose was later!

I am thinking of finishing a letter today before sleep - the one I had started a month back. I do not know what I am going to do with it. But I am sure I will try to keep it a confidential one - incredulously.

A few more pages of 'Emotional Intelligence' taught me a few more things today. The book a really informative and the information can well be used to know ourselves better.