I am trying to be fank and I know it's of no use

Saturday I had been to college for only 2 reasons - to take some books from the library and pay my college fee. If I had some lively poems written on Gridlocked, then may be I would hav had another reason which would have been the most important one. But ther were only the 2 reasons - as clear as I know. No question about that.



Later in the evening on Saturday, when I came to know that the reason that would have stopped me from writing those poems on Gridlocked is at the place I had been before reaching the bus stand, I grew a little uncomfortable with yet another reason I am not clear with. Infact I am happy that I am unclear with it. Then later in the night I had a chat with my friend and may be if I had not had that chat, I would have spent Sunday feeling the same way - obfuscated. There was no concrete that was talked about, but it was just the sharing of how I was feeling that made me better.



Sunday evening I had to attend 2 functions. I spent less than 5 minutes at one of them and more than 5 hours at the other. It was my cousin sister's pre-marriage ceremony kind of thing and we all had a lot of time enjoying. I was amazing and though I expected myself to forget something, it was still there with me - though not visible on my face. I was fine. :)



The party finally ended at 3:30 am and I reached home a little before 4. I slept at 5 and woke up at 1 pm. I had stayed at my cousin's residence so I didn't go to the college. In the evening, wiht my cousins, I enjoyed making a spoof of a famous hindi song. It is a 4 and a half minute video we shot and after my cousing edits it, he will post it on the internet. I won't be ther on the screen anywhere - I was somewhat like assisting my cousin who was with the camera and also giving some directions. I shouted a lot and my thought was aching for something after that. I am eagerly waiting for my cousin to do the final work. We will try to put it on Google Videos. If things work, I will put it on my blog too.



After coming home today, I was again what I should not be. I tried to keep some things away from me and I am fine. I feel too weired writing this, but I can't help - I am trying to be fank and I know it's of no use.



My cousin's marriage is on 3rd and reception on 6th. The reception is in Karimnagar. So maybe again on next Monday I may not be going to the college. I wish I never had to miss any day there, but it seems to be very important for me to attend the function.