I will approach my life further with strict conditionality

How could this be that I feel so disrespectful for myself today? Or is it just another mood swing? No it is not. It is not because I say that it is not and so will my mind should go on to prove that it is not. I am doing terrifically great and no worldly obsession can alter my concrete stanse amalgamated to my strict conditionality. Am I really doing this way? Yes, I am positive about it.

Tomorrow I see a new day with a new experience. Tomorrow I will see my aunt leave us all to go to her home. I have never ever felt this way before. I have seen off so many of my relatives but this is going tobe different. What if I stay at home? ... I am supposed to be sad, and I know I am, but my reasoning says something I always say - "no matter what the situation is, I always have 2 options - to be happy and to be sad - and it is always wiser and smarter to go with the first one". Yes, I better do that. But let this option thing make me the worst of all the emotions to exist. I have found the above said group of phrases so powerful that I find them very dangerous in circumstances when I am really supposed not to be happy.

I didn't get to chat with anybody for some satisfying time today. My cousin was onlin though, I kept myself busy with other stuff. I just kept things to myself today.

Tomorrow will be a new day again showing this word a brand new horizon again. But is this phenomenon new? No. it is not. It is the same old thing that has been occuring for ages and will continue to do so. But some things in life, as I always say, happen for the first times im our lives and I will see somthing of such sort tomorrow. A new experience. A new phase, a new horizon. 'New' is so common, 'new' is getting old. Even 'fresh' is a routine.

2 years from now, I will be a new dimension. A new horizon will greet me. It will shake me and tell me that I am open now. Friends shall be lost with memories that will never fade - i dont want them to fade .........

Positive bunch of words for tomorrow ...let the night dissolve my negativity ... I pray 'friends forever' is reality ... reality into an eternity.